“I’d rather live questioning answers, than suffer bad answers.” —Aryeh Frimer


READ everything—ancient and modern histories, education, the phycologies of human behaviors, Nature’s laws,¬†societies revealed and hidden, cultures, the sciences … etc … etc … etc … life IS a process of continual self-education that NO ONE will teach but you! ¬†We are¬†only capable of showing¬†one another how to think, not what to think. ¬†Realize how intrusive to the very nature of life is the educational “system” of this country. ¬† A so named,¬†“common core” structure: the way of ‘altered’ thought: A guaranteed stagnation of human progression. ¬†An education “system” of regurgitated [supposed] fact proposed of¬†traditional-minded [indoctrinate] dogma. ¬†A life-time of exposure to¬†left and right sided thought cannot¬†bring an individual¬†to the center; a balance created of grand imagination of course in consciousness for joy of¬†experience. ¬†



A human mind is naturally suited to intelligent mindfulness. ¬†It is curiosity¬†that will¬†naturally lead humanity to awareness of truer path; a “rabbit hole” of questioning answers and questioning motives of a¬†society that has built institutions called “schools” where individuals are trafficed and trained and stripped of individuality! ¬†Intelligence will¬†ultimately question a governance responsible for structuring such absured “systems” of confusion and chaos. ¬†There are indeed fundamentally mentally serious problems within these “systems”¬†of . . . dare I say it . . . experiences of mass mind control. ¬†There is no mistake in coming to conclusion that it is our¬†own imaginations what is the true “master” of the¬†things of inner¬†‘voice’, and so does¬†exposure all¬†findings through personal life experience. ¬†And even within proposed delusions tempered of worry¬†and fear of ‘self’-expression. It is reason and will ¬†that give way to awareness; a new uncaring defiance of what others may or may not¬†think of ‘questionable’ sanity. ¬†There simply will be no way to ignore and¬†forget what comes uncovered of untruths. There will be no way¬†the mind and heart and spirit will forget truths that present themselves in personal search for¬†‘self’-forgiveness of unjust anguish: A revealed¬†right of passage to save oneself from oneself. ¬†




I was born into the city of brotherly Love, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, raised in a cozy little¬†brick row home located at 3rd and Indiana Streets in North Philadelphia, alongside parents, Eileen Mary Carry (nee: McKendrick), and Thomas James Carry, the love of our lives,¬†Elizabeth ‘Nanny’ Carry¬†(nee: McLaughlin), my five beautiful sisters, Catherine, Elizabeth, Margaret, Veronica, and Donna, and my two handsome brothers, Thomas and John, and a very large and protective German Sheppard named appropriately, ‘King’. We were considered, by society’s standard of ‘status’, the humbled poor. ¬†As children, we were indoctrinated into Catholicism as the mainstay of worldly knowledge and instruction. All of us being firstly educated at the enchantingly beautiful Catholic church located at 6th and Tioga Streets in Philadelphia, St. Veronica‚Äôs, and subsequently, the girls onto the infamous and extraordinary Catholic high school for girls at 10th and Lycoming Streets, St. Theresa of the ‘Little Flower’, and my¬†brothers being at North Catholic¬†high school for boys. It was at Little Flower that I first heard the words, “To thine own self be true”. ¬†These words did strike me deeply at heart, and have remained with me through my life¬†as coming straight from the great soul, ‘God’. ¬†These words¬†did lend great strength to me as I did so desperately need¬†them¬†in coming to a sense of awareness of ‘self’; a worth of place: A¬†revelation that there actually was meaning to just¬†‘being’ of individual existence.



I would describe my¬†high school years as an experience of mystery wherein I did relished in quiet observation felt of my thoughts concerning human perplexities and complexities. Eventually I came to conclusion that if there are indeed untruths committed to propagate notions toward communal conformity, that there must also be truths both unstated and understated left to individual imagination [seeking]. My observations turned to fixation as I became increasingly obsessive in concern of my own doubts and¬†beliefs,¬†in that I could not believe that there were no truths at all. ¬†In due course, I developed a faith in a ‘God’ of great force¬†speaking of a connectivity of all living things. ¬†The statement,¬†“To thine own self be true” grew¬†within my¬†heart¬†to mean that¬†to find one’s true nature [self] was vital to self-preservation: An inborn sense of responsibility. ¬†I believe, in these seemingly senseless and chaotic moments of man’s ‘time’, that the individual is sadly misunderstood‚ÄĒforced onto a ‘life-stage’¬†of false¬†pursuance learned of¬†[indoctrinate] untruths set on course to encouraging an estrangement from Universal laws; an unawareness of ‘self’ steeped¬†in fallacies of illusion—‘tricks’ of¬†unreality suited for¬†expectations of secular society [enslavement] based in¬†deceitful endeavors where sacrificed is the individual ‘something’ felt of ¬†one’s deepest ‘self’-worth. Consequently, humanity is consciously and subconsciously set against inborn intentions of cause, choice, progression, and message: A chaos of¬†thoughts [anxiety] never to be satisfied;¬†a worth¬†of soul¬†caught in untrue webs of ignorance.



I am here, same as all¬†witness to a blindness of¬†hearts; an estrangement from the connection¬†to ‘God’: An occurance of manipulation contradictory to humanity’s intuitions and expectation of expression. ¬† What a shame it is that our¬†freely given physical experience is not seen for what is meant to be

. . . an individual gift of worth given to chance gift for betterment of¬†the¬†whole; an intention of change suppressed—so much potential unrealized and unachieved. ¬†The true meaning of “mortals’ sin”. ¬† Thusly, witness we do the asking of questions of ‘why’:¬†A¬†conundrum of unending confusion of¬†thoughts and words, as¬†the ‘why’ can only be contemplated within the¬†individual¬†heart—truths and untruths to untangle of mind. I believe all life is genetically fashioned to live harmoniously; a physical, emotional, and spiritual¬†connection¬†one kind to the other. ¬†And what joy it is felt what is known of this knowing! How absurdly unfortunate it is that the¬†usurping of moments of now breeds selfishness of division¬†within all manner of¬†matter of relationship. Worldly ills are controlling life cycles unnaturally and UN-fatefully through man-made ‘evils’—‘evils’ versus ‘evils’ of distraction corrupting the good; a conjuring of lies and ties of perverse thought. Humanity has been made numbed to their own¬†expression, and therefore, have been stagnated of intuitive skills of¬†survival and sustainability; an abominable wrong perpetrated by a¬†demented few who so do encumber the life-force. I believe, that humanity’s natural flow of intention is being denied rightful honor of place of Nature’s order of progression. The events of our lives¬†are lived through energies given—energies taken of manipulation and disillusionment created of malevolent negative thinking¬†of our brothers and sisters troubled of sick soul who suffer uncontrolled lusts for the¬†things of external power‚ÄĒaddictions of corrupt constructs of mind centered in power addictions of inequitable and undemocratic greed.



‘God’ is a great architect of¬†thought and¬†choice. ¬† And so do we¬†choose to embrace an abomitable conformity proposed of man-made “systems” purposely constructed¬†in dillusion of capitalism and materialism—stripped of individual rights of imagination and will, or will humanity fall to its knees in¬†recognition of¬†oneself¬†as was so¬†intended and expected: A acceptance of humbled¬†place of cooperation within¬†the greater natural force .



All matter of life form born to¬†these generations are survived witness to the suffrage¬†of the whole;¬†a¬†restlessness of UN-bearing felt¬†of righteous hearts. ¬†Personal attempts of remembrance of bonding¬†are made through spirit; an ancient remembrance of¬†humanity’s will speaks of rescue through inclinations to un-learning to re-learn how to heal the wounds of an unintended stagnation. ¬†All life should be denied no more of choice and cause. Remembered¬†must¬†be the innate responsibility given to human¬†stewardship, for¬†without which, no doubt comes an inevitable ruinous outcome. ¬†If a¬†positive change of mind of Universal mentality does not come about in the now of historic breaking point of human desperation of unbearable sick soul, then¬†doomed from precious existence all life will be. ¬†True it is that humanity deserves what humanity chooses . . . I choose, “To Thine Own ‘self’ be True”! ¬†The most important words I have ever been blessed to hear! ¬†I am only sorry that I did¬†allow the ‘demons’ of secular society [negativity] deafen my ear¬†from the very words of ‘God’ for¬†a time in darkness. ¬†I am utterly joyous of heart and spirit that these words did come back to rescue me.



“You want weapons? ¬†Go to a library! ¬†Books are the best weapons in the world.‚ÄĚ
—Dr. Who(¬Ņ)



To the¬†‘God’ of all things, Thank you, for forgiveness of the things of un-bearing misunderstanding.¬†¬†I will move¬†forward of will that¬†seeks that¬†which¬†educates my spirit to the ‘whys’ of misgiving. Accept my apologies for causing another¬†pains of life come out of my own vanity of ignorance. ¬†I accept the pains of indignation’s endurance; a reasoned humility of determinate. ¬†In highest esteem¬†I do hold unto life¬†for finding me worthy of meaningful message—lyrical enunciations and whisperings coming¬†of inner ‘voice’ of speaking; a¬†joy of¬†frequency¬†and¬†sound felt of pure Love which did heal my broken pieces and did¬†free¬†me from the¬†prison of regrets as if to say,¬†“Above all else . . . “To thine own ‘self’ be true”: ¬†A personal revelation.